Perfection – I know it’s completely unattainable, but that doesn’t stop me from trying or beating myself up when I miss it.
I wish I knew where this compulsion for perfection stems from. Is it a function of my personality or my upbringing? Probably a little of both. Personality wise, I’m a DI on the DISC profile, a Lion on Gary Smalley’s test, and I truly wish I could remember what my Myers-Briggs type is, but all I remember is it starts with an I. From my childhood, I remember my mother always claiming she was perfect (with a wink in her eye) and I remember DIRTFT from my dad which stands for Do It Right The First Time. He may have told me that as an adult, I don’t know.
Regardless of where it comes from, this relentless striving for perfection has taken and is still taking a toll on me.
More to come tomorrow…